In September of 2016, I left my day job as an attorney. I hung up the old suit-and-tie and opted instead for jeans and a standby pair of black Adidas. (As an aside, my sense of fashion is such that I do not call my jeans “Denim” as some are prone to do these days. I only recently learned the term “Selvedge”.) I struck out into the world of words, hoping to find a way to carve out a living scratching sentences. As of the writing of this piece, I’ve not yet starved to death. (An accomplishment of sorts; just ask any writer.)
In these last few months of entrepreneurial writing, an increasing sense of irrelevance has set in. In the local coffee shops, the old lunch haunts, the boardrooms, I’ve become a non-player. I walk a new career path with much less polished shoes (sometimes sandals), and that path is much lonelier. The phone rings less than it once did. My advice is less sought, at least in the legal context. Some think me crazy, insane to leave a job that provided comfort, security, and the opportunity to own fine leather goods for something that is… Who knows what?
It’s a tricky thing, following a path that seems tailor-made for you even if it is less lucrative. (Lucre makes the world go round, doesn’ it?) I know I’m not special in this. How many entrepreneurs have confessed to feeling this way? But this exercise in increasing irrelevance and decreasing security has me asking this question:
What is the aim of vocation?
Vocation could be reduced to a great many things, I suppose–provision; security; validation; power; relevance; fill-in-the-blank. I chased some of those things for years, and time after time, they proved to be quite unsatisfying. (Isn’t it the story of every man (heroic or common) who chased the wind?) And now I find myself at the stillness of my desk, pecking out words about vocation and discovering that I never quite started my career at the right place. I never started by asking the right question. I asked questions like:
How can I maximize my income?
How can I exercise my gifts?
How can I be seen (as relevant, competent, successful, whatever)?
Each time I tried to understand my vocation, I started with the wrong questions, and it led me to the wrong answer. Consumed by the questions of modernity, I found modernity’s answers. Those answer satisfied for a while; in the end, though, they were empty calories.
I’m starting from square one, and I wonder how many of you might need to, too. This week, let’s consider the question: what is the aim of our vocation? Consider spending some time with that question today, and then, let’s explore it this week.
As I work through this short series on vocation, please feel free to invite others along. I know I’m not alone in my questions on this topic, and I’d love to hear how you and your people are processing your own vocational questions.
***TINY MEMBERSHIP DRIVE***
The content here takes hours (and no small amount of spare change) to produce. If you enjoy reading my content, whether here, in the bi-monthly Tiny Letter, or in any of my free email campaigns, would you consider SUPPORTING THE WORK? (It’ll only set you back a cup of coffee a month.) And, if you enjoy this website and haven’t yet signed up for the bi-monthly Tiny Letter newsletter, sign up to receive it straight to your inbox.
Want to receive my updates in your inbox? Click here. Also, follow along on Twitter and Facebook.